Friday, 31 January 2014

Fantasy vs Reality ...


By the time you read this I will be in getting yet more tattoos for radiotherapy
third trip people
I am starting to look like a human dot to dot
I will spare you the details but I like to think that it is just that they enjoy my dismounts so much 
that they keep calling me back to experience the wonder of them
of course that is me living firmly in fantasy land
but that did get me thinking about all the fantasy vs reality situations
of the whole breast cancer crap and it is quite the list it turns out ...


I had this fantasy that I would look all bad ass and Demi Moore cool as a baldy
the reality is much closer to buddha with glasses... not even vaguely cool

fantasy...getting bitten by a mosquito while full of chemo would lead to them being poisoned by the stuff and dying a horrid and painful death
reality...they suck it up like nectar and become bloody mutant super mozzie

fantasy...I will lounge in bed and my dutiful daughter Phantom Steve read to me from my favourite books
reality... she had me as a captive audience for endless YouTube videos featuring Mamrie Hart, Grace Helbig and Hannah Hart ... though admittedly once you get past the language and some of the wildly inappropriate content ...they are hilarious

fantasy... that the dog licking my bald head is because he wants to comfort me
reality... he also licks cushions, carpet and his boy bits so maybe not sure about that one


fantasy... that I will wake up from a lovely slumber to the sound of gentle birdsong
reality... I wake to the sounds of Phants trying to get the dog to sit on a whoopee cushion
though for the record reality was pretty darn funny in this case
the look on his face when she achieved it was priceless

sleep fantasy number 2...  that I will wake to find a hot cup of tea and a selection of chocolates on the bed side table waiting for me
reality... I wake to mad giggling and find that Phantom and Sinus Man have drawn eyebrows on me/made bows out of washy tape and stuck them to my head/have hidden the remotes... you get the idea... it has been a long 24 weeks of chemo
and I still find myself a few days after my last dose waking up with a racing heart at the thought of what fresh joke hell they have inflicted on me ...


fantasy... that Phants will want me to impart all my wisdom while she sits dutifully by my side
reality... she just wants me to keep messing up her seven sided rubik's cube thingy so she can get her solve time down ...
while acting as my editor Phants became incensed at the inaccuracies of this one and demanded a clarification... it is a seven layered v cube... technically a seven by seven by seven... yep she whooppee cushions the dog but I am in trouble for rubik's inaccuracies!!!!

fantasy... that having no eyebrows would mean I now have a great poker face and after whipping Sinus a few times I will be ready for the pro poker circuit and will make my fortune
reality... the sum total of my poker knowledge comes down to being mildly familiar with a Kenny Rodgers song and Sinus knows even less,  so I am thinking this one may be quite the reach to take from fantasy to reality...

fantasy... that I would have time to do all the Soul Food Lessons
reality... the only one I have attempted is the one by Gwen Seemel
mind you I loved it... all those coloured pens and messy lines... right up my alley
and in keeping with the whole fantasy/ reality theme I thought I would get in and transform some of my "normal"drawings into her fabulous coloured fantasy versions
and while I still love my normal versions, those coloured ones are kind of addictive


I also tried some inchies for the first time
which is all sorts of fun... challenging because I am half blind and have rather dodgy motor skills but I do wish I had thought to try them earlier
I was inspired by Diane Scott 
and they would have been perfect while I was stuck doing bugger all for so long...
of course now I am up and about I am sure they will be as much fun in the studio
happy painting everyone...xx


63 comments:

Jenny said...

Love your post Tracey.... and your wonderful sense of humour... but can only imagine the truth of your reality and what you are going through at the moment... your artwork is still as gorgeous as ever... big hugs...

Jenny ♥

Rita said...

Hey, Tracey! I especially love the rainbow colors you have added to those sketches and the inchies are great. Sounds like reality isn't too bad after all. ;) I am so glad to see a post from you, dear one!! Glad you are up and about a bit now, Ms Dot to Dot. Much love and hugs!! :):)

Serena Lewis said...

Another awesome post!! Great laughs, greats sketches!

Have an awesome weekend ~ xo

Gwenn said...

You are funny, wise, and also kind. Thank you for this post!

Belinda Basson said...

Loving the new colour sketches. I can see why they are addictive. Thanks for the insight into your world each time you write. It gives me a window into the reality of life and makes me want to live mine better. Even without Chemo and the breast cancer, I think we all have fantasies and then the realities which are so far from what we want, but sometimes better for us in a funny kind of way.

Darnell J Knauss said...

Black and white or colored, your talent pleases me so much, Trace. You could sketch Mushu Poo and I would be entranced!!

I'd like to thank you on behalf of all radiology technicians everywhere. Women with beautiful dismounts make their day in so many ways!

Alos, it's a testament to how funny/fun you are that your beloved husband and child torture you. In the way we can find blessings out of even the sheetiest circumstances, I'm just so thankful you don't have abdominal stitches!

Thanks for the post! I am thinking of you often and keeping you in my prayers. Big hugs, Darnell

JoyCorcoran said...

I don't know -- a Buddha with glasses sounds pretty cool to me. Much love, Tracey.

Lynn Cohen said...

That many weeks already, really? Holy crap! My fantasy is that I come to your blog and you say you are cured, it's all over, and you have gotten on with life! I hope it's soon. This cannot be fun; and yet you are able to laugh at the craziness around it all. I bow to you! If you ever become exhausted and just need a good cry I will cry with you!
I do love your art in all it's many forms!

Rootweaver said...

Hey Trace, here's a dose of reality for you; your blog is addictive, I love it so much! Your sense of humour and your randomness is wonderfully refreshing. But, best of all - your art. I fell in love with your art from the moment I first laid eyes on it! You truly are inspirational and I want you to know that you touch lives and make a difference with your art and beautiful spirit. Keep smiling courageous lady, and know that you are deeply appreciated! xxx

Rootweaver said...

Hey Trace, here's a dose of reality for you; your blog is addictive, I love it so much! Your sense of humour and your randomness is wonderfully refreshing. But, best of all - your art. I fell in love with your art from the moment I first laid eyes on it! You truly are inspirational and I want you to know that you touch lives and make a difference with your art and beautiful spirit. Keep smiling courageous lady, and know that you are deeply appreciated! xxx

Ayala Art said...

OMG I don't know what made me laugh more, the mutant mosquitoes or the linking dog! HAHA you should make a book out of your posts!
You are so strong and amazing!

The inchies are fantastic too, and they look addictive!

Nic McLean said...

I really like the camera and food processor the way they are coloured-it reminds me of the way petrol looks all rainbow-y in a puddle if you know what I mean. I love that far from indulging you in your sick bed your family play pranks and keep you on your toes and I bet you look like a very lovely Buddha with glasses! Xx

Polly Birchall said...

Your explanation makes me visualise all that is happening! Hilarious. Good luck with the rest of treatment and with the colour squares, loved them

Jo Murray said...

Must seem like forever. Hang in there Tracey...your humour is addictive.

ann @ studiohyde said...

Hilarious post Tracey! Sorry you are having to go through the chemo and the whole tattooing radiotherapy thingy...thinking of you and sending good vibes. (has the dog got over the shock of the whooppee though!)

Netty said...

wonderful post Trace, Hope all these treatments are at an end soon and you are free from this dam disease.

Inchies......wow never seen hand painted inchies before, they are terrific.

Happy PPF, Annette x

http://nettysartadventures.blogspot.co.uk/

JKW said...

The camera is fantastic. The inchies look good, remind me of the 'Cube' . Many Blessings, Janet PPF

Carmen said...

The thought of mutant mosquitoes makes me shudder as I'm allergic to some of them.

Love the way your family is *ahem* looking after you though :D Did make me giggle!

Gwen Seemel's lesson was one of my favourites too! Love your take on it! But inchies? Wow you have better eye sight and a steadier hand than me ;)

Giggles said...

What a plethora of hilarious visuals you have shared in your humorous Tracey way! Mushu the licky lou with an affinity for boy bits!! Prankster Phantom and the illusive remotes...enough to make a woman crazy for cocoa puffs!!I have to admit I have done the permanent marker mustache on a crew of sleeping campers who awoke laughing at each other! Not realizing they weren't alone! So good to hear reality reigns in the King home, chased with a lot of fun! Wonderful sketches and inchies...Love the textures on the pencil crayon sketches!

Wishing you happy days ahead tattoo Trace....I guess you won't be showing THOSE bits any time soon...teehee...

Hugs Giggles

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

I noticed the change in colouring right away. :D
And tell Phants that I understood what you meant with the cube description. You are off the hook. ;)

Susan said...

Congratulations on completing your chemo! They didn't take your humor or your art . Onward and upward girl. I look forward to what you will do.
P.S. Your camera is fabulous!

Corrine at sparkledaysstudio.com said...

So glad you are through the chemo. The fantasy at least kept you going....not funny at all and you've been so brave through the whole thing and humorous. i did laugh at the dog licking all sorts of things including his bits....

Turn the corner and on to the new day...xox

JoZart said...

Super post that I wish you didn't have to write, but you do, and you do it so well with humour and wisdom. MY DD blogged on Caring Bridge whilst her 18month old child went through her chemo and it was so caustic but humorous and 3 years on now her hair has grown and she is back into the light with a good future predicted it is amazing to read back the diary blog.
You may look like a buddha with specs now but think how gorgeous you will be when your hair grows ... .the contrast makes it all the better! Keep yelling, joking, but most of all keep your wonderful art going for you and us!
Jo x

soulbrush said...

As usual I am lying on the floor with laughter-- you are just a marvellous human being and that's that! Ad I can't wait for your blog to be published as a book- it will fly off the shelves! Love you, love your consistent humour- which hides the reality. Happy Happy PPF. (ps have you become a traitor and taken up the coffee drug?)

Linda said...

What a really SUPER post Tracey!!! I can just picture all your fantasies and realities. Your sketches are just awesome and I LOVE your colorful inchies!! Amazing how hard it is to work on such a tiny substrate-I've only done as small as "twinchies". Soon enough your own eyebrows and hair will be back-it won't be long now-keep up your wonderful attitude and art. XO

Snap said...

Oh, Tracey ... my dear ...
You had me laughing out loud! Bless you for starting my day off right.
oxox

Anne Manda said...

Thanks for the laughs, great post! And wonderful drawings! Wish you so well!<3

Julie said...

LOVE the camera!!!

http://www.artworkbyjm.com/

Neesie said...

Well as usual Trace we never know what's coming with your posts.
But we're never disappointed.
What a giggle.
Your brilliant words and fantastic artwork are a delight even when they touch on such a delicate subject...we're so lucky that you brighten our day with your tales.
I have visions of your dismounts now and I give you a 10 without a doubt!
Have a wonderful weekend xo♥ox

Helen Campbell said...

I love your paintings, Tracey, and your fantasies as you face down the cancer circus and win. I give you a 10, fabulous lady. Hugs!

Boo said...

As usual, Your blog posts always make me smile. You are so funny. I'm impressed that Phantom got the dog to sit on the whoopee cushion. I bet the washi eyebrows were so dang funny.

Maybe you'll be able to connect the dots in to a wonderful picture.

kat said...

Tracey you are full of humor as always and your art is great, I love those last pieces you posted so much, they attract and pull me in, keep getting well!
Hugs
Kat

SLScheibe said...

A great post and very funny. :)

Your sketches are always wonderful and your little inchies are so colorful and fun!

bellefrogworks said...

First things first - love the camera sketch and the color. Secondly - once again you made me (you hear that - I had no choice!!!) smile big and chuckle out loud. I have tatoos too - not from radiation but from a needle biopsy. I love your posts - even when you're a bit down you just can't stop from creating smiles all over blogdom (I think I just created a word)

alarmcat said...

Sounds like you have a great support system…despite some of the practical jokes. :)

i always look forward to your posts. Happy PPF

MeOfCourse said...

Yes you can definitely write a book with these posts you have going. Love your post and drawings and the way you just keep going despite what you are going through. Thank you for making me laugh. Sending you ::healing prayers::

Mª Jesús Vera said...

Querida amiga la admiro tanto, admiro su fuerza personal, vital y la fuerza de sus trabajos. Disfruto con sus pinturas, lo más cotidiano lo embellecer trasladando su vitalidad en los colores. Un cordial saludo

Faye said...

Thanks for the peek into your reality, Tracey. Your drawings are awesome and the ones with the different colors fascinate me. But I think I like the plain drawing best. Your family sure loves you bushels! What a cheerleading squad you have around you. Best of luck with the next round of radiation. Sending prayers for healing.

Diana Evans said...

amazing as always!!!! your work brings a smile to us all!!! Happy PPF!!!

Michellem said...

Love the black/white versus color with your sketches.
I find that very few things that I actively fantasize about turn out even remotely as I wished. . .Many hugs to you as you continue your treatment - your humor in dealing with what must be the biggest challenge of your life is so inspiring!!

Irene Rafael said...

You had me laughing and crying at the same time. Fantasy vs reality...it's a daily minute by minute question and experience. Best to you. Love the grey tones.

Anne (cornucopia) said...

I admire your ability to keep your sense of humor through your ordeal. And your sketches are fantastic.

minnemie said...

hilarious! the mosquito had me lol. i get the fantasy. i pluck their wings whenever i can. so there. confession about my true cruel feelings about the annoying creatures. LOVE inchies and especially the black and white (paynes grey?) versions your camera and funky tea brewer. EXCELLENT shading as always.

jane :) said...

I'm not sure which sounds better - you make reality sound so hilarious!

Enjoy your tatts, I bought my mother a leather jacket when she got hers (over 10yrs ago now), so maybe that's next on Pheobe's to do list ;)

Hugs to you all, jane xxx

Fiona said...

Tracey, as always you are an inspiration to us all with your sense of humour and your fabulous blog. xx

Lorraine said...

love those inchies and the espresso machine is fab

Nicole Beadwright Campanella said...

Bless you. This is a wonderful post.
With wonderful art. It would be an honor to know you in real life. You know not in cyber life.
Nicole/Beadwright

Alexandra said...

OH MY GOSH, I LOVE LOVE LOVEeeeee your cameras. I just can't get over your style of art. I so admire it and wish I had that extra special touch like you have. I just admire you in general. You're an amazing woman, friend, big sister and so much more. My life is better because you're in it.

Love you SO very much! xo

Jessica Sporn said...

your spirit is just wonderful. And the art is pretty amazing too!

Sheila said...

Hang in there girl! Your posts are so much fun! Unbelievable that you can be so entertaining and funny, all while dealing with this! Keeping you in my prayers and thinking good thoughts!

God Bless you with health, strength and may he keep your funny bone intact!

Be well!

zenkatwrites.com said...

You are a wonderful writer -- I came for the art -- artist from Soul Food -- and stayed for your pithy funny writing!

Deepa Gopal Sunil said...

You have written so wonderfully well...great sense of humour :D
Loved the camera and the colourful inchies are just perfect and lovely :)
HPPF Tracey:)

Aga Gasiniak said...

Beautiful and dear Tracey, your sketches are great! Fantastic post. I am not very familiar witch chemotherapy but I believe that laughter and art are great healers as well. Lots of love to you and big hugs.

http://agagasiniak.blogspot.co.uk/

Tam Hess said...

haha you crack me up! As always and forever your writing is priceless. My Sis and I talk reality all the time. What's real to one person make it reality to them, even though we clearly see it's not reality to anyone else. Altered states of reality. haha

LOVE your inchies. Those suckers are inspiring. I need to try them sometime.

Happy Paint Party Friday!
A little late, my Sis went into labor Friday and had her baby Saturday. Yay!

http://CardMakingArtists.com

Sandra Busby said...

I really think your blog should come with a government health warning aimed at those with weak bladders! It is becoming increasingly hard to pretend I am working in the office when I am in fact reading your blog posts and the trying hard not to laugh usually ends up with some bazaar snorty sound escaping from my tight lips! I very nearly peed a little bit when I read this one and I have all sorts of visions in my head, mainly of a bald Buddha in spectacles! Who needs medicine? - It's right here in the form of laughter - never fails me!! Awesome drawings too :0)

Annabelle said...

Tracey, you're a gal with an exuberant spirit and it shows through even when you hurt on the inside. Enjoyed reading your hilarious post and all of your fabulous art.
Wishing you a quick recovery….stay strong!
p.s. you got a precious family : )

Hugs Annabelle

Terri Morse said...

Tracey, I nearly wet myself when I read that Phantom woopie-cushioned the dog. I would give anything to do that to my cat! Really though, After 24 weeks of chemo, I can't even imagine what a huge pain in the @#%* it is to have to go through radiation. Just think of how much fun you'll have getting even with the family when it's over...

Jez said...

Beautiful sketches, and wonderful humour. Another goal ahead - the last day of radiotherapy. Here's hoping it comes soon.

Kristin said...

LOVE love love! And that's reality ;) xoxo

pauline said...

oh Tracey, it was so good to visit here.
Such a wonderful sense of humor you have, and considering what you're going through - THAT, my dear, is remarkable. Your artwork & words always make me smile. Thank you for being who you are. Wishing you nothing but good things in the years to come! xx

Tammie Dickerson said...

LOVE LOVE LOVE your camera drawings the best!!! They are marvelous - and you are amazing to be able to do fabulous work with so much "reality" going on! Wishing many many days of fantasy :)

Marilyn Rock said...

Found you through Corrine. I will pass on prayers and positive thoughts. You are a very strong woman!

Marva said...

Okay, I am totally impressed! I have tried to draw my camera several times, it looked nothing like yours! :)